1. Which emotion do you have almost no record of feeling?
Look for the gap. Envy, grief, need, rage, longing, delight. One of them is missing from your account of yourself.
2. What comes out instead?
Sadness that was anger. Busyness that was fear. Jokes that were hurt. Name the substitution.
3. What happened when you showed it as a child?
Somebody responded, or nobody did. That response is why the substitution exists.
4. Where did it leak out most recently?
It is not gone, only rerouted. Find the instance in the last month where it got through anyway.
5. Where could you let it through on purpose?
One low-stakes place. A person who could hear it, a room where it would cost nothing, or a page like this one.